I think I figured out something specific about myself. I came to me after a session of venting to my mentor. After mulling over that conversation, I concluded that I thrive on a particular form of judgement and, in contrast, feel vilified after another. What I mean by that is how someone else interprets my vernacular. For example, I was venting to different people at different times about an exchange I had with another artist. One audience made it a point to validate my feelings according to my thought process. The other group apologized to me on what felt like the behalf of the person I felt offended me. The former helped me reach catharsis after venting and the latter fed my fire. I don’t like to be the object of pity. Instead I prefer empowerment. Empowerment refocuses my mind that reminds me a lot of my time in sports. The general attitude with sports is “if you want it bad enough then go get it”. I interpret the piteous mindset as codling. I’m insulted by it. I realize that this ...
The past couple of weeks have been a whirlwind of progress. As of this writing, 11:12 PM, 10/11/17, our thesis film "Knuckle Sandwich" is 99% locked in. The character designs of our main characters are 80% locked. The story boards are 2 passes away from being kick-ass. My team is spectacular. We're a collection of work horses with an incredible set of eyes for detail. We keep the ball rolling at a bagillion miles an hour. That's all fantastic. I couldn't be happier with how the film is going, but that is the academic part of my life. I've been growing more self conscious of myself as a leader. I haven't been in this kind of a position for years. It shows. I forgot how to take my time and really think. I forgot how to talk like a person. I keep forgetting that not a single person is completely on the same page as me. I want to blame things for these issues I'm having, but that's unfair. My inadequacies are because of my high, spoiled expectatio...